for today

I've been thinking a lot since yesterday, basically since I took this UC course. I'm kind of in a middle of so much confusion, disbelief and mixture of pessimism and optimism, and kind of a lost feeling, don't know who to trust what to trust, don't know what should I be thinking now and what should I be doing in the next some years or maybe this whole life to fulfill what really means the right! I have poor expression of my thinking in English then please understand whatever I wrote in a broad sense?? no, uhmm.. open sense? :)) haha LOL forget it.